Pink as the bing on your cherry

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see ya there bunnies<3

"Say what you need. Say what you want. That way it's not threatening. You just need to say, 'This is important to me.' Don't expect your mate to read your mind."
-J.A

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

I am kept confined at home for a good whole week and after all the medication im now pretty weak to the bone...
I've been drinking so much water for the past few days.... damn am i bloated
I've been playing l4d past few days and yet I still bored...
I wanna go out so badly...

.. can't wait for monday to come...
things will certainly get more exciting;)

This song is so bloody catchy and the korean girls are so pretty!!!

...and the korean dude is so funny trying imitate the girls, I guess it happens to best of people when they've been confined to a cubicle at work for too long with a song such as "Nobody" on repeat=/ but i must say he's got some pretty slick moves! For a one man show he's awesome! Damn... i'm sucha youtube junkie....

"And who gave you the right to shame my family?
And who gave you the right to shame my baby? She needs me!
And who gave you the right to shake my fablic tree?
And who gave you the right to take, intrusion?
To see me!
And who gave you the right to hurt my family?
And who gave you the right to hurt my baby?
She needs me!
And who gave you the right to shake my fablic tree?

You put a knife in my back
Shot an arrow in me
Tell me are you the ghost of jealousy
The ghost of jealousy

Come on!
But it's dynamite
A peace of mine
Tell me are you the ghost of jealousy"

I just can't accept it...
He went too soon with a Heart attack?? Common!!
The guy was working his best And hardest for his next(last) big break!
Omg and just look at this performance~~~
I swear at 2:15 into this video... "DANGEROUS!"`````

Like all legends they always depart us at a young age,
sudden and in the most unexpected ways....
For one, at least the 'Michael Jackson exploits' would stop and his nightmare of living up to expectations has finally come to an end.

R.I.P Michael(The King)
<3

ps: fuck perez with his cockster hair-do who made such an insensitive comment about MJ's death saying that it was a joke!!! You're the biggest-and I mean it literally-Joke of all time!!

3008 Fashion makes my head spin!!
The dream phone, latex and hot heels... You have to be kidding me!!!
Monday, Tuesday,
Wednesday, and Thursday
Friday, Saturday
Saturday to Sunday

Get get get get get with us
You know what we say
Party every day
Pa pa pa Party every day

And I'm feelin
That tonight's gonna be a good night

This year seems to be going by really quickly and I've been meaning to pen my thoughts down here for the longest time but... after going through my photos I came to realize that for a long while now I have seem to gone 'camera-shy'!!
But i manage to grab a few photos and have them up- finally- to blog about my more recent times and as I feel like a noob right now trying to figure out how to resize my images all over again and... (okay enough witht he ranting)
know I'm pretty tempted to switch over to blogspot for this very reason... Hmm...


Moving along... I'm finally done with school and well I'm pretty much bumming around now feeling pretty sloth-like/relaxing/living up to the couch potatoe me soaking up the 'sun' through my heavily radiated home of gaming devices... Well that and the scorching hot weather outside that I call 'global warning hot!'
I've been finding a thousand and one reasons not to work but since I'm choosing not to continue with my degree-huge debate here-so... that means I have to get my lazy ass outta the house and work! geesus.. Wishing there was some way I could avoid having the trouble to go through interviews and stuff like that... Have no idea what I should be working as..
Know I swear I had a million things I wanted to blog about tonight but thanks to the bothersome uploading of photos it has thrown my patience along with my train of thoughts out the window..
Well I have been blogging privately for a long time now and since I'm more relaxed now.. maybe its time for me to come outta my shell and start shedding!! Lately I seem to be having the life drained out of my and becoming this hollow shell without any personality! I have no idea what's become of me or how I even got to this state but I just need to get out of my comfort zone and just do something bout it! Yeh, I know how lame that sounds but honestly I'm sick of the me now and I guess I mean to say that I'm ready for change! Wait let me take that back.. I might need to prep myself summore bout this.. but yeh you know what I mean!!
Hopefully someday I might manage to find peace with myself...

...negativity will just be the death of me!

Things I'm missing out on cuz of schl:

-hanging out with my girlfriends
-being a couch potato
-shopping
-dressing up
-late night bamboozing
-skyping.. calling.. talking...
-cash that is meant for my lifestyle purposes but ends up becoming my money for printing
-slacking at places drinking honey lemon and have time fly by like it didn't matter
-relaxation

Things I must do after schl:

-sleep
-eat
-sleep
-shop
-party with my lovettes
-sleep again
-catch up series of 90210
-finally plan on a holiday( if i still have spare cash)
-BLOG?!
-Tweet?!

man.. the list is endless...
but i'm hoping not to dash my happy moments with the degree course... urrrgghhh

but i just did. Crap....
can't wait for the 24th and this nightmare will be over!

seriously... I should get started....

....pretty ugly

bloody ox of a yr to begin with...

the first month of it and already its looking dreadful and bleak!
Nothing seems to be getting along smoothly on course..

gotten sick... still sick...
bro got warded... still warded...

and his situation keeps switching from good to bad every now and then...

now i'm worried sick...
Poor mom is so drained out from all the worrying and I seriously want some improvement!!
*no words can describe a mother's tears...*
I badly need divine inventions to take place now...

Adding to that,
JH will be leaving for a month at a time every few times this yr and tt is 3 trips and many sad goodbyes... urgh and I haven't had the time to recollect myself. I need help aiding my depressed state. I have no idea why I'm constantly feeling so disconnected from everything and everyone...

fuck it...

I fuckin hate it when I put myself out there only to drown myself in my own stupid little mistakes.
A moment of weaken leads to another regret.
Why we do always fall in and out of love
fast enough not to realize the pain we have to go through for the next boring years to come...
Urgh
2009 better be good to me because if it isn't, I'd probably give myself another opportunity to wreck this life of mine...

God save me...
"allow me to appreciate the simple pleasures in life... esp when the waters are calm now"

Love, sex, death, passion, fear, obsession... Just like life.

I think it was better not knowing anything at all.
The past is the past and
secrets should have remains secrets if they were kept that way in the first place.
Why did i have to pry into my past only to find out that the truth really hurts!
I had to let my curiosity get the better of me and now that the truth is out there,
I can't stomach it.
What was it that I am actually hoping for?
I'm living in the new year, but my thoughts are constantly played backwards..
what is it that i'm really looking for?

I guess I need to find a way to move on and remember that
the past that was once was before has ended
and the new me, is ready for changes.

One day at a time-this is enough.

Do no look back
and grieve over the past
for it is gone.

Do not be troubled
about the future
for it has yet to come.

Live in the present,
and make it so beautiful
that it will be worth
remembering.

I'm really looking forward to oct 3rd!
this was gonna be a surprise but i can't seem to contain my excitement!
Gonna have a rendezvous with my boy for 2 lovely nites and I just can't wait!
Its been long since we've had a romantic time together-ever since the army stole a piece of him away from me- so there you go!
His birthday celeb in advance and I'm so hopin all goes well..
*crosses fingers*

School's been sucking me dry off my life
but i'm glad I've got the bunch of my classmates to pull me through the days.
Being whacky and all sorts is just another normal routine to our way to distress-although there isn't much to stress about in the 1st place...

++Pat just recently flew off to London, and its gonna be a really long time till she comes back again. I'm still not accepting the fact that she's gone, i'm just taking it as though we're both really busy with school and we'll meet up as soon as we're done with our crap.
*love if you're reading this... : i miss ya.. dearly*

I wanna speed through my life,
hit the pause, rewind, stop button and yet stay youthful always..
...
I don't want a time machine, i just need a 'universal' remote control.

Aiight, cool....
So where's the hen?

Good evening,

all you fakers out there, with your transparent sheet of plastic you have for skin. Just like to say, fuck you for existing. Fhank you.

yours sincerely,
solace